erin’s weekly wrap up #1
nothing special happened this week. i still haven’t seen my dear elliot. hello elliot i miss you by the way!! i did tell a friend i don’t want to talk to her anymore after i got out the psych ward and i think that im really proud of myself for that :). i wont get into what happened because it’ll piss me off more and i wanna focus on the positive (allowing myself to set boundaries)
my brother is home from college for a few days!! im really excited. maybe we can do something this weekend. if not i know he’ll be at our older brothers birthday party next friday. it’s odd. i miss him too— having him not around the house is weird. it’s quiet now. but it’s always been quiet. is it possible for it to get quieter when it’s always been silent?
i’m also talking to my dad more. i’m really happy about that. we haven’t always had a good conversational relationship but i feel like he has my back now. and i’m happy about that.
also, i got my nails done! i wanted it to be more opaque - like pictured below - but they turned out to just be transparent. nonetheless, i’m happy with them and i’m proud of myself for doing something i’ve wanted to do for a while now.
last but not least - i went to an antique shop before i got my nails done. it’s this shop in my town called on the hunt. everything there was super expensive - like, out of my budget expensive - but it was nice to be around a bunch of old things. my favorite was the wall of license plates they had.
i saw an old vintage barbie there and this poster of marilyn monroe a local artist made (they were selling it for $400). i wonder if there’s a museum of local artists in my county? i’d be soooo down to go and look at art - i already love love love the DIA. also saw a bunch of rosary’s they were selling and some vintage books— but they were $15 each and i wasn’t willing to spend money on that, especially when i don’t have a job right now.
i miss going to school, too. but i know its best for me to focus on therapy right now. i actually had a meeting with a therapist recently - i don’t know if i vibe with her yet but i think i’ll give her a shot if this other lady doesn’t get back to me.
i also really want to read this book by andrew joseph white called you were never meant to be human. it’s trans horror and i really love trans horror books.