i am mad and i feel as if i can't do anything
the trump administration is targeting trans & queer people, and as so many people in my community are both queer and trans, including myself, i can't help but feel a plethora of overlapping - and sometimes contradicting emotions. anger, sadness, rage, fear.
lately, i've been trying to distract myself from the rise of fascism in the country - of course, i don't want to ignore it - but i'm afraid that only finding the things to be sad about will take me, one way or another. my friends and i chit-chat, talk shit, and giggle about twilight, about how bad every movie after the first one is, or how we can't seem to go on good dates - sometimes we venture out to one of the malls by us, window shopping (usually they shop and i window shop).
i don't really know what i'm trying to say. perhaps it's that i feel hopeless, but despite, or in spite of everything going on - both personally and politically - i am trying to prevail. sometimes, the only way out is through. perhaps that's not a good thing. perhaps that's not a bad thing. perhaps, it just is.